Trainwreck

I'm so sorry

I havent updated my blog for quite a while because of some private reasons. I figured out that I shouldnt really write whatever I want here. Sayang, I know you've read some things that you shouldn't have. Told you I was sorry for being such a bitch. You know I love you and I always will. I take back all the things I've written. All the swearing and stuff. I'm so sorry baby. I love you xx

Today's the third day of puasa. I didnt really feel it on the first and second day, but somehow today I feel so hungry. Its now 5PM. 2 more hours. Thank god. Lets hope during this month there will be some changes. Haha. I hate this holiday. Why do we have to have holidays during this fasting month -.- aaaaaaah. I dont know what to post about anymore. Challo! ;)

Here's to silence, that cuts me to the core

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Yo whats up people. I just got back from ze clinic. The doctor said I have swollen tonsils. Yay. How awesome is that -.- It hurts seriously when I eat. So its torture to swallow, but when it gets to my stomach, YUM. Haha. My dad wont allow me to go anywhere now :'( I cant even go see my cousin who's leaving for Houston, Texas. If youre reading, I'm so sorry fatiah. I seriously wanted to send you. You know I'll miss you so much :'( - Currently very the bored. Having a conference wif Jepa and Tiareo. Theyre going to BK in bkt antarabangsa and theyre leaving me behind. You beeyatches ! Haha. I'm so hungry. I wanna eat BK. But the problem is, i have a problem swallowing. It'll hurt so badly.

My mom found out about my piercings. YAY. haha. She scolded me obviously. She said i'm not allowed to do anything with my friends anymore. Until she gets my trust back. Actually she doesnt mind me doing anything with my body, she just wants me to ask her. I get it. She's worried. - I'm sick and my boyfriend's not here to accompany me :'( Hm. Whatever. He's busy helping his friend fighting for some girl. Other girls are important. Yes yes, i get it. I'm so upset.

Thats it. Challo.

Yamagatal

I actually wanted to update my blog like right now, but I just dont know what to write. No actually I knew, but I forgot :o Damn it. - I'm in my school's ICT lab with my class. We just finished our sivik exam. Yes, i cheated, again. Haha :D I hate sivik. It's so, sivik-y. Haha. I dont think that even made sense -.- Yay my boyfriend is online! :) I get to talk to him. Finally. Dah lah. I dont know what to blog about. If i do know, i'll update later. Boiboi :)

I want thisssssss !

I SERIOUSLY WANT THIS PHONE

Pain

Eee sakitnya mata :( I dont know whats up with my eyes. There's like some biji or something. It hurts like hell :( - I just got back from school, from sungei wang, and from vi. I went to sungei wang to get my piercings. Yes I finally have them. Three on each ear :D It hurts like hell but I'm so damn satisfied. I went to vi cos I wanted to meet my bestfriend, Faizal. Well it seems like he forgot about me cos he went after his crush. Whatever lah. What can you do when youre in love right? Hm. Faizal gave 'her' a hug. How sweet. Yes i'm jealous. SO WHAT? Its not a problem. People get jealous. Especially me. - Sherin aimi and fatyn are downstairs, eating. I dont feel like eating cos i'm not in the mood and i'm not hungry. I'll just have dinner i guess. - Ugh my eyes hurt! I cant stop touching it. Dah la kimi tak kisah. Lagi la menyakitkan hati :'( When fatyn said its getting bigger I almost cried. Why? COS MY FRICKIN BOYFRIEND DOESNT CARE! And cos i'll look ugly. Heheh. What would you do if yr boyfriend doesnt care? Ok i dont know what you people would do but I'd cry the shit out of me :'(

I'm signing off now. I want to feel bad about myself.
To that certain someone..I know i'm not pretty enough for you but you could be slightly nicer and ignore me and in a nice way.

Irrreplaceable

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Halluuuuuuu! Haha. I'm so bored and cheerful and tired all at the same time today. Why i'm bored? Cos i have nothing to do, obviously. I am not going to study because i'm the laziest person on earth. Why i'm cheerful? Cos me and Uno had a momento :) I miss uno. I miss those moments we shared together early this year. If you know who i'm relating to, shh! :P Why i'm tired? Cos i slept very late yesterday. Midnight kot? I was busy sms-ing people. Haha. Today's exams were..Okay i guess. Bm was easyyyy! Which was shocking. English was easy also, as usual. I never fail in english. Haha show off. Geo! Hah. Geo was kinda hard. But hey, thanks to my class who are well known as cheaters. Haha. Especially Syafiqah and Putri. WB09 was being suuuuuuch a bitch today! I dont know what her fucking problem was. I hope she gets sick and dies soon. Seriously.

I'm currently listening to Hush hush by PCD. It's kinda okay. Not that bad. Dont ya think so ? Theyre not that bad. But what i dont like about them is that their lead singer is so old and she thinks she's young. Haha. And dont you realise that the only person that sings is her? Melody can sing so much better than her! I am in love with Robin Thicke's magic. His songs are so seductive and addictive! Especially magic. He has this amazing voice which keeps repeating in my mind 24/7. Dah la hot nak mampus! Though he's old? I think. Haha. I'm downloading a lot of songs. Hope it doesnt like ruin my mom's hard drive or soft drive or whatever. Haha. I am sooo bored ! I feel like having a bottle of coke with Maltesers! That would be soooo good. Yum :D I cant wait for puasa. I dont know why. Haha. I guess its cos i have plans to buka puasa with my darlings :) I wanna bring them to Rakuzen, but I'm afraid it'll be too expensive :'( - My darling kimi wrote " I love you ally " on the back of my english paper. How adorable is that :) I felt like crying when I saw that. Habis hancur smua niat and plans. Haha. What the heck. I love you Muhammad Amirul Hakimi ! With all my heart. I dont want to leave you, ever. Screw all the things I said to myra or fatyn or whatever. I love you and I will always. - I cant wait to go for futsal and swimming this friday! That is if my parents allow. Haha -.- I also cant wait to go to watch I love you Beth Cooper next week ! Yaaaay! I've got everything planned out. All i need now is permission. God damn it. Oh yeah! I might be getting piercings tomorrow. Where should i pierce? Haha. I have a feeling I want to pierce my ears only. But tiara and sherin are forcing me to pierce my navel. Should i ? I want to but i'm afraid it'll hurt.

Nobody gonna love me better, i must stick with you forever. Nobody gonna take me higher, imust stick with you. You know how to appreciate me. I must stick with you my baby. Nobody ever made me feel this way, i must stick with you.
<3

I could never ask for more

When we went out the other day. Look at fatyn. Haha

School today was fine I suppose. Kamariah didn't babble a lot today. Thank god! Puan Zanariah questioned me about why I was wearing a pinafore, and how short my pinafore and socks were. I dont think it's a problem. Why? Just cos I'm a muslim she wants to question why I'm wearing a pinafore? Hello, it aint wrong. The teachers in sbu are total psychos -.- During recess me and tiara rushed to the canteen, as usual. Haha. We were hungry ! We could eat a whole elephant. Haha. Joking. I wouldnt want to hurt an elephant. Certain people might know why :) We were in the school library practically the whole day after recess. Puan Fara and Puan Noraini didnt come, Robert pulak kena paksa :p Haha. Pity him. He's so innocent. Oh did i mention that i have exams starting today ? I hate exams. I mean who loves em right. I wasnt ready at all. Thank god today was only arts. I coloured away forgetting the main point of the whole thing -.- Aaaaah what do i care. It's just arts. I finished early so i slept for like, 45 minutes ? Haha. I was sleepy ok. I woke up and realised that my whole face was red. Blood red. Freaky much? No? Haha. - Bloody bored lah today! I got home late. School finished at 2.30 and I reached home around 3.15 cos of the bloody jam at the school compound. I couldnt sleep in the car cos there was this huge insect that was bugging me. FYI i'm afraid of insects. I dont know what the phobia is called. My pimples are not showing anymore! Yay me! Haha wtf. I have tuition tonite..Soooo lazy :o I dont think I'm going. I'm gonna give 1001 reasons to my mom and see if she believes them. I hope she does. Lazy lah.

That's all. Challooooooooo!

Make a difference

First of all - Muhammad Amirul Hakimi. Just so you know, I seriously do love you.

Hello. I am terribly sorry about the last few blog posts. As in all the swearing and stuff. I had my PMS - My eyes are all puffed up and I'm looking for something to make it all better. I'm having my period and my pimples are starting to show (!) I've also been eating a lot lately. Tambah dgn stress semua, I dont know what's gonna happen to me. Am i gonna turn into some fat widow? God :/ I need to straighten myself up. Seriously. I need serious help. Is Oprah around? Or Dr Phil? Haha. Joking. - I have to give Azmie's phone back tomorrow :'( Anyone have an extra phone? I seriously need one. If can, Sony E w910i. I know i'm pushy but i just want that phone. I'm not rly comfortable using phone's that arent my type, ya dig ? Lol. - I'm currently having a convo wif azfar mukmin, my so called therapist. And we're talking about my darling kimi. Azfaro told me that i cant be too much of a control freak. Which i am. So how do i change that attitude of mine? I can't. I'm weak and I have no self-esteem/self-confidence. I need help. I know my family cant help me cos they dont know whats going on in my life and they do not have to know.

Ahhhh tomorrow's a frickin monday. School ! One hour assembly, exams, psycho teachers. How awesome is that. Stupid school of mine. Why the hell didnt they postpone the exams? They gave us a holiday right before the exams which they shouldnt! Dah la they didnt even tell us whats going to be in the exams. We didnt even bring back our books to study. How the hell are we supposed to pass this exam? Damn it. Thank god it's only monthly exams and not the end year exam. Ugh. Damn SBU! I wonder why I wanted to go to this school so badly -.-

Okay thats all for today. I wont be updating till next weekend. Challo ;)
I love you Kimi. Always will. xoxo

Emo shit

What the hell is happening to the world. Why the hell do people take drugs. What's the fun of it.
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I seriously need answers, like now. I dont know wether I should talk to you or not. I'm so upset. I dont know why you had to do this to me. Why? Why? Why? I dont want to get all emo and whatever but youre causing it. I hate you :(
Kenapa kena macam ni? I feel like crying until my tears run out but I cant cos I know I'm a strong girl, and I know you'd hate to see me cry. What am I supposed to do? Usually youre the one who'd help me through all these problems, but now youre the problem. I'm seriously lost. I dont know what to do..

:(

You're so fucked up!

I know this is my second post for today but I dont fucking care.

Why the fuck are you so fucked up? Cant you tell me things yourself huh? I need to know everything you do from your friends. Cant you tell me yourself for once?! Why? Is it so hard just to tell yr own girlfriend? I dont think it is! I'm not going to talk to you until you realise that you have a girlfriend and until you realise that you have to start telling me things! I hate you right now. Its good that yr dad beat you up. Maybe you'll start to open yr eyes now! Go to hell.

Did you think I would wait forever?

I can taste you on my tongue with yr lips to kiss like the red hot sun

It is 11.58PM and i'm blogging. Do you know how boring it is to blog at this time of day? Ugh -.- I'm currently waiting for Aimi to come to my house. We're having our lepak session today. I have one hour more til she gets here. So the lama. I'm also currently having my period. And i have PMS. No one must get on my nerves today, or i will silently kill them. Why in the world would god create period? Its such a nasty thing to do. Sapa yg suka period tu pegi mampus lah -.- Macam neraka bila period. I need my manstruals nowwwwww. Aimi has them. Aimi also has my RM20 credit. Haha. Oh my godddddd my stomach is hurting like hell. I know there's a small person inside of me trying to scream and get out. Thatsmall person also agrees that period is hell.

Just now my cousin hannah asked me wether I wanted something from Boston or not :D Yes, Boston! So I went window shipping on the internet. Haha. The dress I want is niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) Trust me. Check this out : http://www.wetseal.com/catalog/product.jsp?categoryId=104&subCategoryId=189&productId=22158
My boyfriend's phone got confiscated. This time by his parents. Why laaaaah :/ Maybe he got into trouble or he was trouble. I dont know why parents have to confiscate their kid's phones or any other things. Such as credit cards? Haha. Azfar jangan terasa ye. Dont parents know that the things they confiscate are important? And we need to use it. Especially cellphones and cash. What if we missed the school bus? We'll need a cellphone to call kan. Ah screw the public phone. They only smell like some smelly dude's armpits -.- Teachers shouldnt confiscate phones as well. They should allow phones to be brought in school. It only depends on the kids, how they use them. Darn it. I just got a text message from sherin saying sbu wont have holidays this august. Fuck the principal. I'm seriously gonna have some orang utan fuck her someday. So to the kids who wanted h1n1 holidays so badly, you better take yr wish back. Cos if you do get holidays, you'll end up like us. You guys will have holidays and we wont. DAMN IT. I want holidaysssss! I wanna go outtttt! Ahhhhhhhhhh :'( Damn the school board! I am not going to school that whole week! I am going out without a doubt. I'm not gonna tell my mom we have school that week. Who wants to go? Trust me no one will.

Relient K.

Why relient k? Cos i'm listening to their song now.
Wow. I havent updated for a looooooooooooooong time don't you think? I don't know what to write now. Haha. Lets start from sunday, 2nd August. My relationship with Kimi has been going on for 2 months already now. Yay! :) I love him to bits. Oh yeaaah! My school is currently on holiday cos of h1n1. At first it was exciting, everyone loved it. I mean c'mon. Who doesn't love holidays right? But daaaamnnnnn. I take that all back. Holidays are boring! Why? Maybe cos kids from other schools are schooling. Just maybe. To those of you who are dying for a holiday cos of h1n1, trust me, you'll regret it.

Yesterday we went out. I told my mom I wanted to go out cos there was this BBGS renunion, which there really was ok ! But I didn't go out cos of that lah. Obviously :p I went out with Aimi, Sherin and Fatyn. Sherin was late as usual. Slow poke. Haha. Since the three of us arrived early, we went to eat at Carls Jr. My fav :D It was Fatyn's first time there, so I gave her a taste of my favourites. She loved it. See, I know a good meal. Haha. By the time we finished eating, Sherin still wasn't there -.- She's bloody slow. Anyway once she arrived we went to Forever 21 straight away. What else would we do there than window shopping and trying out things? Haha. I bought a dress. I love it! Sherin spared me a lil money hehe :) Thank you slow poke. I love you for that. It's a nice hippie looking dress. Oh relating to hippies! Each of us bought a hippie band. We wanted to look 'cool'. Haha. I also bought red nail polish. I've always wanted red nail polish. Yay. Kimi and Azfar came later. We met at gsc and went to starbucks. Were else to lepak than starbucks. I think we were there for about 2 hours or so? Damn bosan man. Aimi and Azfar had chemistry :p If you know what I mean haha. ( Azfar if you're reading, no offense yeah :D )

I am so bored. I want foooooooooooooooooooooooooood. Delicious hot and spicy food. Yummy. I'm so hungry. I feel like going for dinner at Rakuzen. Rakuzen is this western japanese restaurant. There's one in jalan raja chulan and another one in plaza damas. I prefer the plaza damas one. If you're going to the plaza damas one, ask for Reyton ok? Haha. He's this chinese looking dude with specs. He looks kinda nerdy but hey, he's nice, and he'll give you desert for free :D Did you know that before this I didnt know the difference between dessert and desert? Haha. I still dont know the difference now. I mean I do know the difference, but I dont know the spelling difference. I just paused for 2 minutes from blogging cos I was watching manjalara. Haha wtf gle kan. I know -.- Its bloody lame. Blegggggghhhhhh. Has anybody watched freedom writers? Watch it! It's inspiring. Currently at 7.30pm on the 5th of August 2009, it's on tv channel 411 a.k.a hbo.

Know what I just realised? I just realised that I havent lost my blogging mojo. Hahaha. Wtf is a blogging mojo doh? Whatever. Haha. That's all for todaaaaaaaaaaay. I love my baby elephant hehe :) I love him in a place where there is no space and time..Does that even make sense? Haha